Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Wishing you well!

I am so sorry I have not posted in almost a week I will explain later in the post but for now I'd like to talk about my card.  This is an image from Deedee's digi's called 'Wishing you well!'.  I used SU card stock Mellow Moss and DSP 'Welcome Neighbor' paper, black marker for the stitching and SU felt flowers.  I colored the wishing well with Copic's then used a exacto knife to cut out the image and pop it on the paper.  I thought it rather cool to cut out the top part of the well and be able to see through to the clouds.

My ranting:  For those of you that want to know whats going on in my life can continue here.  This will be my place to say what I need to too keep my sanity and let you know I'm still alive.  What started out to be an act of kindness when my Mother wanted to move to Tennessee to be by her family has turned into a nightmare.  My health is suffering because of taking care of Mom, she knows exactly the buttons to push to set me off.  She expects me to devote my life, my day to her by sitting with her, waiting on her an abandoning everything I have for her.   She has temper tantrums if I go downstairs and work in my studio, she'll go to her room and go to bed or slam the door over and over.  She sees people all over the house and she is angry because I tell her over and over there is no one here but her and myself.  She just gets so mad because I never believe her.  I'm at wits end what to do with her because a private nursing home won't deal with her this way.  Right now she's gone to bed, she's mad so she asked to go to bed, she doesn't see what this is doing to me heck I don't think my brother or daughter sees what its doing to me.  So what if I take 2 pills for HBP, 2 for triglyceride's and of coarse a anti-depressant.  I am so depressed, I can't get out of this funk I need to get away but how?  I pray and I've asked God to handle this, I really have given it up to him but in my blindness I don't see the signs.  I've even asked God to hit me upside the head to see the answers.  Instead of seeing the answer I've read the Bible, prayed and counted to ten hundreds of time and I'm still in the same place.  I feel like I'm in a vicious circle and I can't get out.  I'm sorry but I had to let it out.
God Bless,
Jeanine

5 comments:

GrannyCharlotte said...

Jeanine: I'm so sorry that you are having to go through this. It is so difficult to see our parents go through these types of things. Is there any kind of adult day-care in your area that could give you a break maybe one day a week? I had a friend at work that did this and it helped her keep her head above water so to speak. You will be in my prayers.

Moose Ridge said...

you have my prayers...

Allison
Dunlap TN

Sylvia said...

Several years ago when I was going through a tryng time a friend gave me this verse, Ephesians 3:20. It basically says that God even more than we can ask or even think. Will be praying for you.

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Deedee Anderson said...

Granny, first, I want to say your card is GORGEOUS -- the little scene you created is so very fun! Now to the rest, I am very late in getting here to comment, and I know that some changes are in the works. But I am still so very sorry that you have had to go through all this. I think us dutiful daughters try to do our best by our parents, but sometimes it can just be too much. By the sounds of things, this has been WAY too much. You've got to take care of yourself, sweetie, or you're no good to anyone else. Please know that you are constantly in my prayers both for your health, and for things to be settled with your mom. I know good things are coming for you! Hugs, Deedee